change IS good :D but NOT always :D

:D heyyyyy howwwdiee ppl :D
havnt blodded in quite awhile felt the pull started feeling the withdrawal symptoms :P
hehe yeah i no pretty lame :P
but like lame is IN BRO :D n plus i ust cant help it im too full of it :D
u no i always use humour as like a defence stratergy :D n its good :D
lately ive been feeling the need to use it more often n omg i tink its geting over !!
i no rite (dramaticly) noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo *
:D
but may be if i take a break from this south indian state i will be better n my humour stok will be replinished :P
off late ive been acting a lil blah ! if u no what i mean but im like pretty sure u dont :P
well ive been gting mad so fast n all i mean ive got a mad anger problem but till some time back ive been able to control it but now like the deamon fox in naruto that seal must have broken n lk omg its geting out in gushes !!
:D
now mabe if u like a regular reader of my blogs mabe JUST MABE u might find a difference in this one :D 3/4th of my spellings are right :D
well thats is because i like read a fellow bloggers blog n was like omg :D
my english is NOT NAICE :D
but this is a phase im lk betting il be back before a duck can shake its cute little tail 2 times :D hehe :D
ohoh!!
sexy yo mama joke :D
yoooo mama so ugly that her birth ceterficate is an apology letter from goD hahahah :D

:D

so like i also realised in most of my previous blogs ive mentioned the ex too much :D
well its pretty normal that i would cause i duno blogging about it makes me feel better its maby people dont you know irritate me about it !
as in giv me advice or say stuff like its ok everything goning to be alright :D
come on who are we kidding :D that sentence is stupd :P
all of us know it isnt :P
if life was that easy then no wars no shity political crap !! hmmm wheere did that cum from :P
but nways may be sumtimes i just cant stand it when ppl make a big deal of it :P

so today like this friend of mine called me to lk carry out physocology experiments on me :P
not like the kind that test you n see if you lk crazy or not :P
hehe :D
but the HOD passed me like while i was waiting to be called in there :P
N OMGGG !! i think she is the next flattest thing after ironed paper that i have seen :P
i mean no disrespect !
but !
female people gt curves ! she NUTING !
AT ALL !
n i duno y it was such a big deal but i swear such a small thing mind fukd me :P
for what reason ! no clue :P

:D
i think this one particular blog is kinda boring if i am not lk mistaken :P
cause i kinda got bored writing it :P
well but i felt that it was needed :D
so im signin off :D
cheers \m/ :D

:D it was in my head ! now its on the internet !! :D

:P okkk cams rolling n actionnnn :P
stageeee musicccccccccccccc n immmmm bak :P

:D
sumtimes i love the dramatics i mean its just the way i am :P
i mean i love the very thrill of all the tiny stuff in life reach explosive levels :P
i kinda like it finding excitement in everything i do :P
but then again recently :P
I HAVE BEEN DOING NUTING ! TO FEEL EXCITED BOUT ! :|
N ITS BLODY GTING TO MEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !! :D
so im lk in coll n im totally cool :P i mean nuting to get mindfucked at col :D ur brains busy all the tym :P
so v all cool in my head !
n then i cum bak !
n i go lk damn now wat :P
so i go grab sumthing to eat :P
keeps me ocupied 4 quite awhile :P
my body responds well to food .. so then im dn then i do bak to my "residency" to u no ponder on crap dat not worth pondering on !!
so yeah naturally my thoughts go onto my X now i no as hard as it mite seem to believe she is my first cause im that awesome :P she is :P
so neva mind its always hard the first ones are always the hardest n the stupidest :P
its lk the experience creator !! :D
so yea i keep thinkin of er n all n i duno i kinda feel low then ! :|
but then i wat the green lantern n i feel happy :P
i like green its a nice colour !! :D

i mean to a hugggggggggeeee extend i prefer orange !!
i wish the Portuguese team had oraange jerseyies  

nways i mean i duno if its lk just me or am i thinkin way too much bout er !
mabe its normal :P

but i dnt lk it !
ok thinking is ok !
but too much is lk u no gandfucking :P (incase u dont actually no wat gand means it means bum,bottom,anus etc )
so i basically am gting a bit fed up !
i have no cluse where all this is going !
n the futher it goes down this road the more i no its gna suck !
i mean it mite not!
but ....
hmmm :D
i duno
:D
fuk it !
lets tak bout sumthing happy:P
like ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :D
SUNFLOWERSSSSSSSS :D
u no those middle seeds on\in a sunflower !
i used to think actually still think cause there is a small posiblilty that the seeds cn gt planted :P
 !!
n ul have baby sunflower babies inside of u !
n believe me thats not a cool thing to imagine !! :D
ok !
:P
no lets imagine it :P
its funny in my head !! :P hahah hehe :P
so lk imaging if the flowers grow too long :P
they wil pop out ur ears or nose heheh :P
dats funny :P!! :D
 or ul poop long stalks of sunflower stems ! :D
hahah :D

nways :P
now im lk dn being lame :P
im sure u tired of it too :P
so wait up for the next set of bulshit :P
love ya :P
nite fukers :P

:D well this just for gags :P

wazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzapppppppppppp ppl :P
so im lk bak :P
got bored of not bloging :P
n lk dude i wrote this poem in class today :P
the topic was lk "those eyes" so i tot id put it up :P
mainly cause i duno wat to write bout n i really wanted to blog !!

THOSE EYES by -----------

those eyes .. those beautiful gay eyes

now im tired i want to eat a few fries!

cause those eyes !! oh they giv me the cries :(

everytime i look at them ! i feel lk buying a few ties

! but instead i win them as a prize!

oh!

but those beautiful eyes:D

nah no fries damn i tink il go eat sum pies !

awww those guys how they love her eyes.

but i think those are all lies

so its normal he cnt write about her eyes ! so instead he writes bout his lovely fries :P

:D now i duno if u gna even find this  remotely funny :D but when i wrote this im telling u the gurl beside me laughd so much that she cried :P
n she made me put this up :S
:D

nways soooooooooooo ive been lk recently re-united wid this best frnd of mine :P
gud guy  :D love that fuker :P
he lk lost my trust cause he told sum1 sumthing bout me that shouldnt have reached anyones ears:\
but it did anyway n i gt screwed 4 it :P
so nways v cool nw n it lk feels really nice :D

hmmm wat else wat else !!
well man the quibbing wid da best frnd not any beta yet :P
she stil drives me crazy wid al the emotion that flows outa er :P
man i honestly duno how da hell they cn pour sooooooooooo much damn emotion out at lk once !
i mean happpy emotions alrite ! but da rest !OMG ! JUST CNT STAND IT SUMTIMES :D
i no u reading this gurl :PD i still love u :D

col going on preddy fine :D i tink col driving me to limits man !
im gting seriously lame as hell !
u wil not believe the shit i come up wid :P
if u read my earlier blogs ud no bout this one class mate dats da only reason im alive in class :P
nways v lk sit together n all in lab n sumtimes in class n lk v hanging out together all the tym so now since im in these lame moods pretty much al the time i feed it ALL TO HER ALL OF IT ! n omg OMG !
i have no clue how she is still sane :P
i seriously tink one of the reasons my mum sent me here to mango land is cause of my lameness !!
:D
but i duno if i dnt have er to eject stuf at id exploud:P

oh oh oh ! btw the other day ! n unto the same person as above i unloaded the idea :P
when i go up im gna open a pub called ANYWHERE !! man ! ppl lk where u wanna go all the tym n ususlly the answer is lk anywhere :P
now imagin if there was an actual place called anywhere:P
now tel me wnt that be THE BEST ! :D

hmmmmm im tired ! today spoke a lil tooooooo much i tink :P

man this other frnd of mine gt an iphone4 ! man dat suks :| cause its an iphone4 for starters n i gt a shitty as phone :P
n i just love al the IPODS ! THE TURN ME ON :D/ so any ways he gt one
n i honestly dnt no wether to be happie or crapply sad bad bout it !
:D
cause he gt into this SHITTY ASS COL !! n man the place stinks :P
n lk the phone the only thing goin we in his lyfe thats actually going gud :P hmmm soooooo IM GOING TO BE MAD AT EM !
A FUKING IPHONE4 MAN !! I GT EVERY REASON TO BE MAD !!
SCREW HIS COL :D i dnt care !
only afta i gt an iphone 4 too il be happy :P

well me n the gurl going gud too :P
chosen to ignore her irritating stuf n just smell in the gud stuff :P
the stratergy is gud !! :D
hard to do but going gud :P
so im lk really happy :P

oh oh oh  i want to add a moral today :P
in the mood :P

= lifes to short ! n waiting for stuff that neva gna happen for instance me having sex wid priya rai on the moon neva gna happen :P
so quit waitin 4 it n live in the present !
cause i mean suppose u die tom n then u go upto heaven n say to ursely y did i neva do this ....
thats gna be screwed up trust me !! so not cool ! :D
live everythin in the present ! i no its not the easiest thing in the world !
i mean i find it hard to do too sumtimes !! but i scrape through:P
love ya :P <3

its ova !

well its ova ! n im not holding up as well as i thought i would i mean damn its harder than i expected it to be !!
its stupd actaully dat i actaully fell it i knew it was cuming but ... pheeeeeeeewwwwwwwww it lk punched me in the face ...
cum on who wnt feel the blow !!
i must be depressed now but damn man ! it was wierd ..
mabe it was just me or mabe it was just to hard 4 me to understand sum1 lk her ..
it was difficult .. but 8 months went by :)
8 months .. ful of ups n downs !!
man u no when ppl say gurls should write a book bout themselves casue the so complex !! well hel yea i agree wid them now !! i mean dating brings in a whole new prospective :)
they seem diffrent they change the way u think the way u act around ppl its funny how a relationship cn affect u !!
it did for me too :( i tried to be this personi knew i couldnt .. n mabe thats where the problem was !!
i duno if this blog even makes sense now !! cause im really low n all this phisolophical crap neva cums out rite frm me :(
man this suks ... how does a person who has spent a merry 2 weeks in a strangers life make such a diffrence..
hah mabe thats cause he aint dating her :(
man ! this is so not cool !!

sheesh i feel kinda wierd now u no ... lk ... u no as much as it dnt wrk btwn us v always had sum bond as weak as it was it was there !! i miss that .. :) i no its hardly been lk 5 mins since the split .. but now i no its missing !!
hmmmm
gayness man !!

i havnt felt dis crapy in long !!
DAMN N I GT A COMP PRAC EXAM TOM AHHHHHHH !!man
now im fukd in the head ! :(

im trying to study ............... :\

so i pul out lk my c programing notes n im lk in a full study mood :P
i mean i lk did super duper bad in my 12 boards !! i no :P fukeeeeed up :P so anyways now dat acts lk fule n i actually study better or mabe the subjects are just too easy i duno :P
but yea im doing better :P
so any ways now i sitting n i gt this msg afta waiting the whole day she msgs :P
so im lk all happy n it turns out to be a boring hey so neva mind i reply all happy happy casuse i tot that mite cheer er up frm wat eva she thinkin :P but i dnt tink it did :P
i must have gt er a lil mr mad .. n i cn be really persistant even if it means the opp person is gting mad at me .. i have to gt to the bottom of stuff :P
so neva mind i ask er wats up n as expected she ignores:P
but now damn i find i cnt study anymr !!i start thinking of her the way she taks the way she does this the way she does dat ! n then i go to all lk er cons :P
her bad parts :P
n now since she all mad at me the cons overweigh the pros :P
so its lk damn in my head !!
i just cnt study cause im having the most useless argument in my head if here shez da gud or bad guy :P
but my heads lk a pendulum i cn neva make that choice .. sumtimes i make wrong choices n i duno if this one cause sumtimes me dating er is lk the best thing in the world :P
but sumtimes iit mindfuks me so bad i cn do nuting to stop me thinking of er !!
its stupd really cause im really gud sumtimes at diverting myself to a diffrent dimension but not this time :P
i cnt figure out y its happening !! but it is :P
not cool i tell u :P
cause now when eva this thought pops into my head i feel lk killing the person closest to me :P
so yeah it drives me mad :P
but right now i dnt want to do lk anything rash supose SUPOSE i dnt tink so but SUPOSE (yet again i dnt tink so) v going sumwhere wid this relationship :p
id always feel bad i dnt try :P
so i duno if u watch SCRUBS but im lk jd :P
i have these constant day dreams :P
n i dnt tink i lk em so much :P

haha how random could i gt rite :P